I started this blog several years ago, during a period of personal transition. I dubbed it my “journey of self-discovery.” It was a means of navigating the shit life threw at me without actually having a nervous breakdown. We all go through such times – pivotal points of change where what was is no longer, but what comes next is unclear. The uncharted path forward littered with the debris of uncertainty and self-doubt.
I have always found writing cathartic and have long been fascinated by the first-person, introspective essay. Especially when written in the vein of philosopher Michel de Montaigne. He dared to pose the indelible question, “Who am I?”, and then spent a lifetime seeking to find the answer through the art of composition. As an introvert prone to spending a great deal of time stomping around inside the cluttered recesses of my own head, I find the prospect of introspection both enlightening and liberating.
So what changed?
My last blog post was nearly 3 years ago. A lot has transpired in the intervening time period. I changed jobs, sold my soul to my daughter’s band booster club, started playing tennis, came down with a bit of cancer, saw my daughter graduate high school then stood on the sidelines as she navigated her way through her first successful semester of college. To say it’s been a roller coaster ride would be an obvious understatement. The highs were invigorating; the lows gut wrenching, at best.
Now, all these years later, I find myself once more standing on the precipice, Grendel’s mother at my back – the ever present reminder of challenges faced; before me, the uncharted path forward, littered with the debris of uncertainty and self-doubt.
I have come full circle.